December : Time to rot alone at home.

2006 is coming, and I'm turning a year older (well, in the counting terms of the year anyway). In the earlier part of this year, I was planning ZoukOut as the last event I would go to (cheh...I make myself sound like a party animal hor?). However, I've lost my mood to party eventho December is an eventful month. You see, a girl I used to go out with is getting married next week. No sane human being in my current state would have the mood to party. Is not that I still cling on to old feelings, but if anyone were to be honest to himself/herself, they would still feel the same with their old flame.

Ok, coming back to the topic of "her". You see, we didn’t really have a proper "closure". If anyone's to blame, it would have to be me. She left, and I didnt even put up an ounce of attempt to stop her. It didnt help either when she told me that if I was more aggresive, I'd changed the course of events. But I appreciate her telling me that coz knowing she share the same feelings for me helps to make the night less colder. However, I'm sincerely happy for her. She used to tell me she was afraid that she cant get married. I'm glad she wont have to worry about that anymore.

If I'd be honest with myself, in my current state…I wish it was...



...I wish...



I'd still wish her all the best.